Well latly, i have been feeling a little down, i am not sure if it has any reason, but i just don't get happy over the smallest things anymore, and i feel that everyone out there has something bad to say, and never anything good, when will there be something good to say! I feel like i am fighting with everyone around me, i feel like friends are leaving me behind, and there is nothing to stop it, and i feel like my heart is hurting, even though there is no reason for it to hurt!
i wish that there were things that can be said or done that i can change it, but there isn't that much that already hasn't been said or done, i am going to just keep my friends close and the people i hate away from me, i don't need all that in my life right now, i am not playing games, i don't want to play games with anyone! i wish that people wouldn't play games but hey why not it's fun...
Well it just seems that people take advantage of me, and i let them that's not fair, when someone is weaker then you, don't walk all over them, how is that fair.
there are days that i feel like everything is going good, until i get to the point when someone doesn't think that anymore, i am tired of people telling me how and what to think about, or what to do, i am not a puppet, i will do what i want, if you don't want me to get married i am sorry i love him, if you don't want me to hang out with a certien someone i am sorry, i will anyways, i am not a perfect person, i never will be, i will not be the person you want me to be, i can not be the person you want me to be! I can't do this anymore. i am use to making everyone happy, but i am not happy in the mean time! it's not fair, why do people expect so much from me?
Thanks for reading,
Krysten Parks
Krysten